As I work this slow climb up the mountain of recovery from the depths of an underworld of depression, I struggle against relapse. I lack motivation towards keep going. The mess grows out of control like an untamed monster let loose on an unsuspecting defenseless village. Hurt and pain of guilt of not being good […]Read more "I DON’T WANT TO"
Without my two eldest I took a turn for the worst. I took to antidepressants from my Dr. My insurance paid for the generic brand. I don’t know why it makes it worst not better. If I thought my life was bad this dipped my toes into a real torment such as that I would […]Read more "DO I HAVE TO STEP BACK TO GO FORWARD?"
My two eldest children have return to their father’s for the school year. I swear my heart physically broke. i text them daily but it’s not enough. I’ve broken to the point that I talked to my doctor about anti-depressant. Talk is an understatement, I wallowed in tears and snot-nosed confessions of being better off […]Read more "WITH THE KIDS GONE"
Where have I been. in some deep, dark cave of despair. This cave exist within the confines of my mind. It doesn’t make it any less real. Dying in a ball of stress, struggling with the small day to day tasks, I was bang my figurative head against a very really, hard wall. Overwhelming was […]Read more "Level Up"
I haven’t been satisfied with the way my life was for a long time. As much as I have people in my life that I love more than life itself. Even though I’m appreciate of the roof over my family’s head, and with it the needs being provided for. There is the constant fear that […]Read more "I’m up, what more do you want?"
Now that I want a better life, how am I going to carve it out this time? Creating the life I want. Hmm where to start? Come on, I even procrastinate with my blog. I need to start with what I have. I have knowledge, wisdom, and an idea towards my goal. My strongest part […]Read more "NOW WHAT"
I’m going through a lot of stress. And it’s not in a good way. I hace to stop and look at the whole aspect of my life. My singnifgant other and I are bumping heads. And my two eldest are soon leaving for their dad’s in another state. I admit my wrong doings on not […]Read more "WHAT SHOULD I DO ABOUT STESS"