I awoke around one a.m. and couldn’t fall asleep. A stimulate concoction of pregnancy hormones, medication, going to bed (rather than nap) at 5-6 pm, and my partner not being in bed. The joys of him switching to first shift, starting at four am. Crazy I know. There is not always bad in the face […]

Read more "WHY ‘O WHY AM I AWAKE?"

I have to be honest. I did nothing. but watched Netflix on the computer. I really need to get paid doing that. Bipolar has a lot of cons and pros. The intelligence is amazing. The learning curve surprises me even. But there is so much that doesn’t help. The emotional roller-coaster is debilitating. The off […]

Read more "HONESTLY TO ME"

I am exploring new territory to me.  Trying to get things done before last minute.  My youngest is now enrolled in school. I feel good about putting her in a Montessori young fives. So with no excuses for not getting stuff done. I have from 11:30 am till 3:15 pm with no one to bug […]

Read more "SLOW PROGRESS MAY BE BETTER THAN NO PROGRESS."

Try and take over the world. Oh wait I’m not on a W.B. cartoon. I have not worked in a long time. I have no business. I have only make believe fantasies. I want to. I dabbled a little on Etsy and Fivver.com but I never sold anything. I woke up this morning thinking about […]

Read more "WHAT ARE WE GOING TO DO TODAY?"

I can’t just do the antidepressants by themselves.  I understand how to do the whole healing as part of what I learned in Witchcraft. Mind, body, heart, and soul. I need to keep exercising, and eating right. I need to learn to stay positive with my thoughts. Learn as much as I can about life, […]

Read more "NOT JUST MEDICATION"

Without my two eldest I took a turn for the worst. I took to antidepressants from my Dr. My insurance paid for the generic brand. I don’t know why it makes it worst not better. If I thought my life was bad this dipped my toes into a real torment such as that I would […]

Read more "DO I HAVE TO STEP BACK TO GO FORWARD?"

My two eldest children have return to their father’s for the school year. I swear my heart physically broke. i text them daily but it’s not enough. I’ve broken to the point that I talked to my doctor about anti-depressant. Talk is an understatement, I wallowed in tears and snot-nosed confessions of being better off […]

Read more "WITH THE KIDS GONE"