Without my two eldest I took a turn for the worst. I took to antidepressants from my Dr. My insurance paid for the generic brand. I don’t know why it makes it worst not better. If I thought my life was bad this dipped my toes into a real torment such as that I would […]
Read more "DO I HAVE TO STEP BACK TO GO FORWARD?"My two eldest children have return to their father’s for the school year. I swear my heart physically broke. i text them daily but it’s not enough. I’ve broken to the point that I talked to my doctor about anti-depressant. Talk is an understatement, I wallowed in tears and snot-nosed confessions of being better off […]
Read more "WITH THE KIDS GONE"Where have I been. in some deep, dark cave of despair. This cave exist within the confines of my mind. It doesn’t make it any less real. Dying in a ball of stress, struggling with the small day to day tasks, I was bang my figurative head against a very really, hard wall. Overwhelming was […]
Read more "Level Up"I haven’t been satisfied with the way my life was for a long time. As much as I have people in my life that I love more than life itself. Even though I’m appreciate of the roof over my family’s head, and with it the needs being provided for. There is the constant fear that […]
Read more "I’m up, what more do you want?"Now that I want a better life, how am I going to carve it out this time? Creating the life I want. Hmm where to start? Come on, I even procrastinate with my blog. I need to start with what I have. I have knowledge, wisdom, and an idea towards my goal. My strongest part […]
Read more "NOW WHAT"I’m going through a lot of stress. And it’s not in a good way. I hace to stop and look at the whole aspect of my life. My singnifgant other and I are bumping heads. And my two eldest are soon leaving for their dad’s in another state. I admit my wrong doings on not […]
Read more "WHAT SHOULD I DO ABOUT STESS"I am an empty person as I watch time go by and I’m trapped in my mind not getting out. Not doing. Where is my will power? Where is my motivation? Where is my life that I want for my family and I? How do others do it? What do they have that I don’t? […]
Read more "TIME IS DRIFTING, FLOWING, RUSHING AWAY"