I have found that I look back and wonder what have I accomplished? Truthfully, it feels like nothing. All I did was grow, maybe mentally, maybe emotionally, but I still live in my parents’ basement. I still have the stressful mess I feel like I started with. I never stop working toward better. My family […]Read more "Where I Stand Today"
As I work this slow climb up the mountain of recovery from the depths of an underworld of depression, I struggle against relapse. I lack motivation towards keep going. The mess grows out of control like an untamed monster let loose on an unsuspecting defenseless village. Hurt and pain of guilt of not being good […]Read more "I DON’T WANT TO"
I have started over so many times and I’m sick of it. The wheels started turning. If I hate something I need to look at the view point. I hate startingRead more "STARTING OVER ON MY TERMS"
It’s only when I became a mother that I relies that Mother’s day had nothing to do with mother’s but in fact had to do with the kids. Our love for them has brought us to be mother’s in the first place. Without them, who would need our attention? Where would we find that things […]Read more "MOTHER’S DAY"
I managed to accomplish the task I was afraid to do, but I expected more from me. I paid the bill for now. I expected myself to set up future bills and payment. I didn’t I’m guessing I didn’t simply due to fear. That was the only thing I took care of for the last […]Read more "DO WHAT I’VE DONE BECAUSE THE RESULTS ARE THE SAME"
I had sat down the other day with a clean sheet in my random notes notebook, and worked on a core product. Of all the things I want, and want to do, what mattered most to me? Which one struck a cord and clicked with bring all the others together? What was I going to […]Read more "Progress towards purpose"
I couldn’t crawl out of bed on time. I scrolled along on my facebook page way to long. Now my youngest is awake and needs attention well I’m like whoa wait I need to get stuff done. All she wants to do is game. I understand it is easy to pacify her by letting her […]Read more "Getting overwhelmed In a Keepa Cool Head Manner"