WHY ‘O WHY AM I AWAKE?

I awoke around one a.m. and couldn’t fall asleep. A stimulate concoction of pregnancy hormones, medication, going to bed (rather than nap) at 5-6 pm, and my partner not being in bed. The joys of him switching to first shift, starting at four am. Crazy I know. There is not always bad in the face […]

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HONESTLY TO ME

I have to be honest. I did nothing. but watched Netflix on the computer. I really need to get paid doing that. Bipolar has a lot of cons and pros. The intelligence is amazing. The learning curve surprises me even. But there is so much that doesn’t help. The emotional roller-coaster is debilitating. The off […]

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NOT JUST MEDICATION

I can’t just do the antidepressants by themselves.  I understand how to do the whole healing as part of what I learned in Witchcraft. Mind, body, heart, and soul. I need to keep exercising, and eating right. I need to learn to stay positive with my thoughts. Learn as much as I can about life, […]

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I DON’T WANT TO

As I work this slow climb up the mountain of recovery from the depths of an underworld of depression, I struggle against relapse. I lack motivation towards keep going. The mess grows out of control like an untamed monster let loose on an unsuspecting defenseless village. Hurt and pain of guilt of not being good […]

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