I DON’T WANT TO

As I work this slow climb up the mountain of recovery from the depths of an underworld of depression, I struggle against relapse. I lack motivation towards keep going. The mess grows out of control like an untamed monster let loose on an unsuspecting defenseless village. Hurt and pain of guilt of not being good […]

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WITH THE KIDS GONE

My two eldest children have return to their father’s for the school year. I swear my heart physically broke. i text them daily but it’s not enough. I’ve broken to the point that I talked to my doctor about anti-depressant. Talk is an understatement, I wallowed in tears and snot-nosed confessions of being better off […]

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Level Up

Where have I been. in some deep, dark cave of despair. This cave exist within the confines of my mind. It doesn’t make it any less real. Dying in a ball of stress, struggling with the small day to day tasks, I was bang my figurative head against a very really, hard wall. Overwhelming was […]

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NOW WHAT

Now that I want a better life, how am I going to carve it out this time? Creating the life I want. Hmm where to start? Come on, I even procrastinate with my blog. I need to start with what I have. I have knowledge, wisdom, and an idea towards my goal. My strongest part […]

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WHAT SHOULD I DO ABOUT STESS

I’m going through a lot of stress.  And it’s not in a good way.  I hace to stop and look at the whole aspect of my life.  My singnifgant other and I are bumping  heads. And my two eldest are soon leaving for their dad’s in another state.  I admit my wrong doings on not […]

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