I awoke around one a.m. and couldn’t fall asleep. A stimulate concoction of pregnancy hormones, medication, going to bed (rather than nap) at 5-6 pm, and my partner not being in bed. The joys of him switching to first shift, starting at four am. Crazy I know. There is not always bad in the face […]Read more "WHY ‘O WHY AM I AWAKE?"
I have to be honest. I did nothing. but watched Netflix on the computer. I really need to get paid doing that. Bipolar has a lot of cons and pros. The intelligence is amazing. The learning curve surprises me even. But there is so much that doesn’t help. The emotional roller-coaster is debilitating. The off […]Read more "HONESTLY TO ME"
I am exploring new territory to me. Trying to get things done before last minute. My youngest is now enrolled in school. I feel good about putting her in a Montessori young fives. So with no excuses for not getting stuff done. I have from 11:30 am till 3:15 pm with no one to bug […]Read more "SLOW PROGRESS MAY BE BETTER THAN NO PROGRESS."
Try and take over the world. Oh wait I’m not on a W.B. cartoon. I have not worked in a long time. I have no business. I have only make believe fantasies. I want to. I dabbled a little on Etsy and Fivver.com but I never sold anything. I woke up this morning thinking about […]Read more "WHAT ARE WE GOING TO DO TODAY?"
I can’t just do the antidepressants by themselves. I understand how to do the whole healing as part of what I learned in Witchcraft. Mind, body, heart, and soul. I need to keep exercising, and eating right. I need to learn to stay positive with my thoughts. Learn as much as I can about life, […]Read more "NOT JUST MEDICATION"
As I work this slow climb up the mountain of recovery from the depths of an underworld of depression, I struggle against relapse. I lack motivation towards keep going. The mess grows out of control like an untamed monster let loose on an unsuspecting defenseless village. Hurt and pain of guilt of not being good […]Read more "I DON’T WANT TO"
Without my two eldest I took a turn for the worst. I took to antidepressants from my Dr. My insurance paid for the generic brand. I don’t know why it makes it worst not better. If I thought my life was bad this dipped my toes into a real torment such as that I would […]Read more "DO I HAVE TO STEP BACK TO GO FORWARD?"